“I’ve used alcohol on many, many occasions, Xanax on many occasions, cocaine several occasions, marijuana most of my life, codeine, cough syrup, methazine is very prevalent where I’m from,” Gordon, 26, revealed in a documentary for “UNINTERRUPTED,” via Cleveland.com. “It’s what I grew up using.”
Completing his fourth known rehab stint, a 90-day program, Gordon has been staying in Gainesville, Fla., with his business manager while training with a former Olympic sprinter, Tim Montgomery, in hopes of returning to the NFL.
— UNINTERRUPTED (@uninterrupted) October 10, 2017
“I think it might be therapeutic for me to talk about it,” Gordon said. “I’m in the position now and I’m grateful for it. I’m able to give this message and this opportunity for you to learn from my mistakes for me to tell them my story.”
Gordon faced his first NFL suspension of two games during the 2013 season. He was arrested for a DUI in Raleigh, N.C., in July 2014, before being suspended for an entire year for violating the league’s substance abuse policy the next month.
“My first thought was, ‘This is a publicity stunt. This is just going to help the media deal with me. It’s going to help the fans be able to deal with it. I don’t know what they’re so worked up for anyway,” Gordon said of that rehab stay. “I definitely wasn’t listening. I definitely wasn’t paying attention. ‘OK, it’s a business move. All right, cool, let’s do it.’ I was there for like 14-15 days, it was a joke. It was pretty much a vacation. I had a bunch of good gourmet meals and took little breaks and then got right back to work. And then led the league in receiving yards.”
Josh Gordon is making his case to be reinstated by the NFL.Source:AP
Gordon did in fact have the most receiving yards in the 2013 season with 1,646, but has only played in five games since. He is currently eligible for reinstatement after being denied by the NFL in May. It’s unclear if the Browns would be willing to give him another chance with the franchise.
Gordon detailed how his college coaches at Baylor enabled his drug use.
“I’ve been enabled by coaches, teachers, professors, everybody, pretty much, gave me a second chance because of my ability. Not too long after I got arrested for possession of marijuana at Baylor, one of my coaches came by saying, ‘You are going to get drug tested by the compliance office. This is how it’s going to work, this is what they are going to do. If they do call you in, here goes these bottles of detox,’” Gordon said. “He showed me how to drink them, showed me how to take them. That was my first experience with getting over on the system and the authority not really being serious because it was being guided by someone who was employed by the university.”
Easy 2 judge some 1 over wrong doings but u never know what they’re going thru! Addiction is a REAL ISSUE! Love the direction u headed JG ?? https://t.co/bG9adjOqhL
— LeBron James (@KingJames) October 10, 2017
Although some of the 2014 season in Cleveland included partying with former teammate Johnny Manziel, Gordon — after being suspended indefinitely in 2015 for being a repeat offender — hit rock bottom.
“I got suspended for the entire year and after that it kind of all came in from all angles, different fans, everybody kind of was like, ‘Oh, you’re a piece of s — t, you’re a drug addict, you’re a junkie, whatever, you’re alcoholic.’ So at that point, I was like, ‘If you all want me to be this guy so bad, that’s just what I’m going to be,’” he shared.
Gordon’s epiphany came on a night he wandered the streets alone, realising what he could be throwing away.
“I was just looking for something, some type of relief. I was walking down [the boulevard] at 11:30 at night-time, and that night in particular I couldn’t find anybody with drugs and I just began to have a flashback and remembered all the negative things that have happened in my life that transpired, like, what led up to this point?” Gordon said. “How did it get this bad? Like, it’s so dark out here, I’m all alone, what the hell am I doing? I was scared. I was scared for my life.”
Gordon hopes to turn the page to a new chapter, a fresh start for the future.
“And then just something click in my head at that point, it’s like, ‘Man, you did it again. You’re willing to throw away everything you ever worked hard for, everything you ever had out of life.’ It was so strange, but I just had a desire to stop,” Gordon said. “I had the desire to get help, invest myself 100 per cent into whatever was going to help save my life.”